I'm ready.

Rise and shine lads. ITS BEEN A LOOOOOOOOOONG TIME I HAVEN"T SEE YOU eh. Sorry cuz i just got carried away with the twitter and now i deactivated it just to get my life back in order. Cuz when you tweet then there are some trends, You gonna think and sometime affect your concentration to think what I'm gonna tweet after this what will fit with the trend and so on.I don't deny that twitter connecting people cuz I always contact my friends in oversea through twitter. But for me It's has lots of cons than pro. Besides sometimes you gonna tweet everything that you could which happen in your life. I mean EVERYTHING. Include where are you now, what are you eating. Well I could say you give a green light for a stalker to get every detail of your life :). Think about it. That's why I got to deactiv it. I want my life back. And if possible I would deactiv my fb too. But the thing is I just recently got some contacts with the international student. and the main thing that we use to contact each other is facebook. Doesn't matter as long I can control myself it won't be any problem then. Ok move on to something else. You know I have someone that affecting my life so much.. And I went to her profile.. But before I view it, I ask myself am I ready. And I have no choice this is the last thing for me to do to get rid of this goosebumps which haunted me for quite sometimes. I can say that I'm ready to move on :). Well at least I can accept she is happy with her life now. :) good for her. And I'm happy too. Good luck my old friend. Maybe we might not see each other again. and again. Thanks for the memoirs. It will be always in my brain. And that's how engineers talk. We kept our memoirs in brain not in our heart. Assalamualaikum.

How lucky are they.

Salam :) and good afternoon.. ok my class will start about 45 more minute and I still sitting in my room blogging heck yeah! i don't know how to start but the story goes like this, I went for tarawikh and i'm not sure which day it was but the during that time I was standing beside a foreginer and he is a egyptian. Well I've seen him before but he looked really kinda mafia-ish haha. But what amaze me during the prayer was, while the Imam reciting some of ayah from Al-Quran I heard he was crying.. I was like.. Wow.. how lucky are you that you can understand what Imam reciting and you can cried about it. Cuz during the prayer my mind keep flying away and i can't concentrate on the prayer.. and its really annoy me seriously. I tried to but it is inevitable.. so that's why I thought if I could understand the of what Imam recites could I cry like him? : |.

Ignorance.

Frankly speaking, no one can't stand with my ignorance even me myself. I don't know where its come from but for sure its really gonna make people so annoying about it. Err I guess my parents have been through it for the past 6 months haha da** that was really bad seriously. But only one thing that I can't be ignorance if it is about the old memories. To be honest it is not that good sometimes to be such a retrospective person. Yeah I keep reminiscing all the things back which sometimes can make me laugh, can make me really in the bad mood and the most part I hate is make me shame of myself haha don't know what I was thinking that time. But, for the sake of betterment I think I have to low it down about  this <-------------------------------> much. cause I need lot of thinking here actually, especially when facing with my dearest baby P.CHEM. Phew and that was something to pond about which I have not prepare for it this morning :).. Come on man,, be ignorance to all of that for once! I mean for my memories. I can't deny that it is something that we WILL do everyday but just reduce it a bit would help me though. Maybe you can come while I'm sleeping or resting.. but not in my prayer and in my study hour. I would get so annoyed and cursing to that thing. Zzzz.. Alright then good luck. And Happy Ramadhan glad that I make my step into this ramadhan but who knows this is gonna be my last. So appreciate it! do as best as I can. Please and please and please do make some improvement alright? Its almost 7.. rise and shine baby.. lets get back to work.. (wonder where i got all this idea to write these :p) See ya! Assalamualaikum.

One thing I ask.

There is only one thing I ask.. Don't you ever repeat that mistake, I'm begging you please. Please save yourself and please forgive me on what i have done.

Thanks to Allah.

Actually there is sometimes that the old memories keep haunting me, but.. I always ask that I will forget them no matter what would it take. When I look back and pond about it, its not something that Allah gives me to destroy me, its about something that I have to face it as a test in this life. I am glad that I was saved from doing the biggest mistake in my life. It was a big mistakes so I wanna tell to myself that, you have to be strong on what ever test comes to you, choose the right way and you will be fine. I'm really grateful that Allah still giving me second chance to correcting myself to be a better person. But honestly I've done nothing to be that kinda of person. Maybe I will take step by step to go for it :). Well Ramadhan is coming so I hope this Ramadhan going to be better than before and am I ready for it? From what I see nah I'm certainly not. So maybe I have to keep knocking myself up in order to realise that this maybe my last ramadhan. Take it seriously, and enough of being such a boy and BE A MAN :p


If you want Protection Allah is enough for you,
If you want Example Rasulullah P.B.U.H is enough for you
If you want a direction Al-Quran is enough for you,
If you want a reminder Death is enough for you,
If all the above is not enough for you,
THEN HELL IS ENOUGH FOR YOU!

Phew. Undergraduate seems not what i expected.

 Well,well,well after a loooooooooooonggggggggggggggggg time i havent update my blog and tonight im gonna tell you a bit of how im being a UG student. Frankly speaking IM SUCH A LAZY BUM! seriously.. i dont know what im doing.. well at least that statement is only valid for Physical Chemistry subject, others are kinda so and so. Once, my friend said, It's not hard to be smart just study that's all. I still searching for a perfect way to study cause of before this i havent went to any lectures even when im in a level. Conclusion is GET AWAY FROM ME YOU LAZY SH**. Enough of giving me trouble. ZzzzzzZ 

-no one can change you except yourself-

I still care.

Hmm I wonder how are you today and what are you doing after sometimes we are not contacting each other. I hope you doing well with anyone you're with now. I don't know why i still care, maybe you have been part of my life for such a long time and I keep reminisce when I ask bout your life today. So its alright I hope you doing well. And no worries the memory begin to fade. So basically I will let it fade until it will completely erase from my head. Cuz its something that we don't want to remember. And If we meet again we will become a complete stranger again. :) but still I'm okay with that. Alright then Assalamualaikum.