Guilty.

Alright lets make it simple and short.. I have applied for a teacher course and I got the interview. The problems are they ask such a quite of letter including why  I want to be a teacher and im actually dont want it. It just one of my final choice if i didnt get a place for UTP. And I have applied to UTP  and got its interview and im not well prepared to be honest. DANG!!!!! I dont want to lie them with telling such a big story how desperate o wanna be a teacher. Another way to say is.. I dont want to be a hipocrite person.. and i dont wanna lie. But do I have other choice? NO!!!!! Btw its gonna be this Monday.. and UTP is on Thursday... O’ Allah please help me. Am I doing right thing. -_-“. Ive become indecisive now. But I REALLY REALLY want to study at UTP i wanna be an engineer. I want to prove that im gonna nailed