I'm ready.

Rise and shine lads. ITS BEEN A LOOOOOOOOOONG TIME I HAVEN"T SEE YOU eh. Sorry cuz i just got carried away with the twitter and now i deactivated it just to get my life back in order. Cuz when you tweet then there are some trends, You gonna think and sometime affect your concentration to think what I'm gonna tweet after this what will fit with the trend and so on.I don't deny that twitter connecting people cuz I always contact my friends in oversea through twitter. But for me It's has lots of cons than pro. Besides sometimes you gonna tweet everything that you could which happen in your life. I mean EVERYTHING. Include where are you now, what are you eating. Well I could say you give a green light for a stalker to get every detail of your life :). Think about it. That's why I got to deactiv it. I want my life back. And if possible I would deactiv my fb too. But the thing is I just recently got some contacts with the international student. and the main thing that we use to contact each other is facebook. Doesn't matter as long I can control myself it won't be any problem then. Ok move on to something else. You know I have someone that affecting my life so much.. And I went to her profile.. But before I view it, I ask myself am I ready. And I have no choice this is the last thing for me to do to get rid of this goosebumps which haunted me for quite sometimes. I can say that I'm ready to move on :). Well at least I can accept she is happy with her life now. :) good for her. And I'm happy too. Good luck my old friend. Maybe we might not see each other again. and again. Thanks for the memoirs. It will be always in my brain. And that's how engineers talk. We kept our memoirs in brain not in our heart. Assalamualaikum.

How lucky are they.

Salam :) and good afternoon.. ok my class will start about 45 more minute and I still sitting in my room blogging heck yeah! i don't know how to start but the story goes like this, I went for tarawikh and i'm not sure which day it was but the during that time I was standing beside a foreginer and he is a egyptian. Well I've seen him before but he looked really kinda mafia-ish haha. But what amaze me during the prayer was, while the Imam reciting some of ayah from Al-Quran I heard he was crying.. I was like.. Wow.. how lucky are you that you can understand what Imam reciting and you can cried about it. Cuz during the prayer my mind keep flying away and i can't concentrate on the prayer.. and its really annoy me seriously. I tried to but it is inevitable.. so that's why I thought if I could understand the of what Imam recites could I cry like him? : |.

Ignorance.

Frankly speaking, no one can't stand with my ignorance even me myself. I don't know where its come from but for sure its really gonna make people so annoying about it. Err I guess my parents have been through it for the past 6 months haha da** that was really bad seriously. But only one thing that I can't be ignorance if it is about the old memories. To be honest it is not that good sometimes to be such a retrospective person. Yeah I keep reminiscing all the things back which sometimes can make me laugh, can make me really in the bad mood and the most part I hate is make me shame of myself haha don't know what I was thinking that time. But, for the sake of betterment I think I have to low it down about  this <-------------------------------> much. cause I need lot of thinking here actually, especially when facing with my dearest baby P.CHEM. Phew and that was something to pond about which I have not prepare for it this morning :).. Come on man,, be ignorance to all of that for once! I mean for my memories. I can't deny that it is something that we WILL do everyday but just reduce it a bit would help me though. Maybe you can come while I'm sleeping or resting.. but not in my prayer and in my study hour. I would get so annoyed and cursing to that thing. Zzzz.. Alright then good luck. And Happy Ramadhan glad that I make my step into this ramadhan but who knows this is gonna be my last. So appreciate it! do as best as I can. Please and please and please do make some improvement alright? Its almost 7.. rise and shine baby.. lets get back to work.. (wonder where i got all this idea to write these :p) See ya! Assalamualaikum.

One thing I ask.

There is only one thing I ask.. Don't you ever repeat that mistake, I'm begging you please. Please save yourself and please forgive me on what i have done.

Thanks to Allah.

Actually there is sometimes that the old memories keep haunting me, but.. I always ask that I will forget them no matter what would it take. When I look back and pond about it, its not something that Allah gives me to destroy me, its about something that I have to face it as a test in this life. I am glad that I was saved from doing the biggest mistake in my life. It was a big mistakes so I wanna tell to myself that, you have to be strong on what ever test comes to you, choose the right way and you will be fine. I'm really grateful that Allah still giving me second chance to correcting myself to be a better person. But honestly I've done nothing to be that kinda of person. Maybe I will take step by step to go for it :). Well Ramadhan is coming so I hope this Ramadhan going to be better than before and am I ready for it? From what I see nah I'm certainly not. So maybe I have to keep knocking myself up in order to realise that this maybe my last ramadhan. Take it seriously, and enough of being such a boy and BE A MAN :p


If you want Protection Allah is enough for you,
If you want Example Rasulullah P.B.U.H is enough for you
If you want a direction Al-Quran is enough for you,
If you want a reminder Death is enough for you,
If all the above is not enough for you,
THEN HELL IS ENOUGH FOR YOU!

Phew. Undergraduate seems not what i expected.

 Well,well,well after a loooooooooooonggggggggggggggggg time i havent update my blog and tonight im gonna tell you a bit of how im being a UG student. Frankly speaking IM SUCH A LAZY BUM! seriously.. i dont know what im doing.. well at least that statement is only valid for Physical Chemistry subject, others are kinda so and so. Once, my friend said, It's not hard to be smart just study that's all. I still searching for a perfect way to study cause of before this i havent went to any lectures even when im in a level. Conclusion is GET AWAY FROM ME YOU LAZY SH**. Enough of giving me trouble. ZzzzzzZ 

-no one can change you except yourself-

I still care.

Hmm I wonder how are you today and what are you doing after sometimes we are not contacting each other. I hope you doing well with anyone you're with now. I don't know why i still care, maybe you have been part of my life for such a long time and I keep reminisce when I ask bout your life today. So its alright I hope you doing well. And no worries the memory begin to fade. So basically I will let it fade until it will completely erase from my head. Cuz its something that we don't want to remember. And If we meet again we will become a complete stranger again. :) but still I'm okay with that. Alright then Assalamualaikum.

Happens for the reason Happens for the best.

“When Allah tests you, it is never to destroy you. Whenever He removes something from your possession, it is only to empty your hands for an even better gift.”

I can do it..

I know you are the only thing or medium i have to connect with my friends but... I also considered you as my distraction from studying.. so im sorry then i have to deactivate you for a while.. which is facebook. so my friends ill be back if i had my holidays.. i said. if. alright then see you later.

Nah not yet.

I dont trust...
No I wont..
Too smart..
Too much...
Too perfect to be true..
No way...
and forget it.


Thank you.

Guilty.

Alright lets make it simple and short.. I have applied for a teacher course and I got the interview. The problems are they ask such a quite of letter including why  I want to be a teacher and im actually dont want it. It just one of my final choice if i didnt get a place for UTP. And I have applied to UTP  and got its interview and im not well prepared to be honest. DANG!!!!! I dont want to lie them with telling such a big story how desperate o wanna be a teacher. Another way to say is.. I dont want to be a hipocrite person.. and i dont wanna lie. But do I have other choice? NO!!!!! Btw its gonna be this Monday.. and UTP is on Thursday... O’ Allah please help me. Am I doing right thing. -_-“. Ive become indecisive now. But I REALLY REALLY want to study at UTP i wanna be an engineer. I want to prove that im gonna nailed 

Picnic at Lake Bera.

Today I went to a picnic with my family.. well im suggesting that we should going to lake bera.. Last time I went, there were nothing special.. just a beautiful scene and thats all. But now its so freaking different. They built a jetty that almost went to the middle of the lake.. which give me chance to capture rather a better scenery.. Its really magnificent when you are close to nature.. :).

f/18  1/60  iso 100

f/36  1/25 iso 100

f/5.6  1/400

same as above

boat crossing.

double poles.

try to focussing on water

Falling leaves.. autumn ^^

Sunset  at last ^^

Well this is me.. my new hair short and spiky ^^

Alright thats all for now.I know some of my friends are in the middle of  final exam.. Jia you! and all the best for you all! :).. InsyaAllah everythings gonna be alright..

Just cause

I know someone.. :)

Black ouT!

My house went  pitch black when suddenly. And yeah my entire neighborhood lost electric supply. I think maybe this can be a good time to take picture using slow shutter speed. But the result would be more magnificent if i have tripod and a correct lens :). But these are not bad either ;).

1st shot.

2nd shot. try to get rid off the wire -_-"

last shot. Cuz i ran out of batt. lol. still working on exposure and
shutter speed.. :)

till Next Time. Much love. xoxo.

Suppose to be studying but...

Well this is another session with my babe... and the results is not so impressive since i captured it around my house.. so. yeah..


Lets see.. :|

dont mess with fire :p.A scene from my burger stall.

Its originally red but since i captured this in evening therefore the colour turns pale
and become pink. But it still has its beauty :)

Cats fight! lol. well these are my cats. the one at the left is Cik Mok and
the one that lying on the grass is Apin. But i prefer to call her Cik Pin.

'a'nother scene from my pan. Its hot and smokin' ;).

And last but not least. My fav ;).

Clear sky with evening moon :).

Thats all for today.. I havent spend much time with my babe.But thats okay tomorrow we will alright :). 

Much Love :).

grenade at 5.24 a.m

progress..

Hmm this is my first plucking song i tried to master, but i have some problems at the last part therefore.. this isnt complete yet.. but this song is really nice entitle "Another You".

An eye opener.

                       I have been waiting for this kinda of thing for sometimes. Well you see Im not going to deny that I might be a sentimental person. To be honest I know during this past 2 years I have been tested, during my A levels I had almost everything. Money,love,such a perfect place to have fun. In the end I almost gave up upon my future because of my stupidity. I might be a person who performing pray but seriously it is not what as I think. My mind went somewhere else. I dont know, maybe im not sincere enough in doing that. The happiness wont last long. After I finished my A level. Or specifically just before I finished all problems came to me.I had quarreling with my ex. And then I’ve been distracted by this kinda of thing, well its a game. But I cant get off my head from it.We called it DoTA. I dont know why I so addicted to it during my last period of studying. Im so addicted to it and it costs me my relationships and my future. Im not blaming on any of these but I blame myself  .So after I finished my A level... I thought everythings gonna be fine. But I lost almost everything. I lost my relationship. I lost my sponsorship and I almost lost my sense of thinking. And because of that I cant really manage myself. Even a small thing can make me really angry. Only God knows how I hate being me during that time. Hmm I kept thinking its gonna be fine when I get to Uni and date someone else. But its not as easy as I think. Cause I cant even make things right in my dream.  Therefore I think maybe keeping me busy will get me out form this kinda of probs. Hmm but it is inevitable. Non of that is working. Even my mom said Im being an immature person. Far from 20 years old guy. Its gonna be a hard time having conversation with me. Because of  I slept at 6 a.m everyday. I made a list of what i have done each day. And I have done NOTHING. Until this one morning. I pray to Allah. How I miss my old me. How I wish I have no feelings. How I wish I can return back and do it again. How I need a tranquility in my heart. I hope the tears that flowing that time was tears of sincerity. And in a split second everythings just seem alright. No depressing feelings and so on. But thats not going to be long enough.I have to make something to make sure this gonna be constant. Therefore, I have found this website which crucially provide me motivations. I hope Im going to be a good slave to Allah. Im gonna share some of it ;). Well those articles really touch my heart. Thats why im not denying that im a sentimental person. Im gonna build my self back. Be a better man. This time is for good .Cause all this while I have been tested and I did it in a such a wrong way. Really wrong. So I hope this time im gonna fix my head back and get back on the track. Actually the website I found is http://www.suhaibwebb.com it provides some advice and motivation. They are really good. And it was make based on real experiences. If you have time(try to J) visit this website  and pick up your favourite topic. I will share some of the content from these articles. So till next time alright. Im not saying these cuz to show off. But its for the sake of myself finding the truth. And sharing with you would be my pleasure of trying to be a good brother of muslim.

Learning process

As soon as i got my baby.. I straight start making some experiments.. At first the result was truly awful.. and then i tried to fix some settings here and there.. And I might say its a good result.. but from professional perspective.. my pictures are a bit imbalance and not that sharp.. but i am a beginner so what are you expecting from me :p.. 

      So the quality might not be the best but.. IM satisfied with my 1st and 2nd picture i took J.. alright then lets see the results

So what do you think?? OK? Or KO?

Move on to my 2nd picture...

Well it does look nice isn’t it.. but still lots to improve J

Haha Im sorry this blog gonna be my place to expressing what is inside behind those pictures I’ve take. :P. So till next time yeah J.

Its RED!!!!!!

Red!!! Hahaha.. Actually im browsing on internet how to make some photoshop effect on pictures.. And i found this article.. how to make an effect on hair.. I test it.. and damn it work lol! I made my hair colour RED! And to me it looks really good. Some people who are expert in photoshop would know that but hahaha its really make me looking at it thousands time.. I want to.. but guess I cant J.. IM not sure if there are some Halal hair colour.. But its going to be the same story... Our culture wouldnt let that happen .. they will say.. bad things bout it. But yeah. but anyway getting hair coloured in the picture already make things up ;) haha but gosh! Does red match with me?.. I love it really much. Except i have to low down the tone.. its too heavy i guess.. well anyway WHAT UP!!! A

Red is Not Bad :p

:)..

Im sorry.

This post meant to be to my brothers and sisters.. I’m sorry to all of you cause of i can’t be a good example. I know i have been an unresponsible brother.. maybe I have for 2 years ago.. But since I was in my bottom of life. I just can’t accept the truth thus I express my frustrated feelings to you all. Will ya forgive me on what I’ve done.. From now on I’ll try to be a mature and responsible brother.. cause sometimes my attitude can be more childish than you.. and you can be more mature than me. I don’t have any excuses.. It is my mistakes and my weaknesses.Dont worry after this I wont do any of that.. To my brothers I’m sorry if always insulting you both. I should have encourage you.. Teach you when I have the chance.. I’m a selfish bro ain’t I. I’ll try making some move to you all after this.. I hope its not too late. To my sisters don’t worry I already make enough problems to you.No more after this.. J.. I can’t promise cause I’m a really bad at keeping promises.  Forgive me  alright?.. J

from left: umairah,natalia,naim and ajiq..

and she is athirah.. the only sister in the world that call his bro crazy ;p.

Just tell HIM.

Today.. I went to work as usual.. and I don't know why the old memory really bothering me at that time.. Its so freaking annoying. Until I cant my work done. Then I decide i have to let go this feeling. I don't care how im gonna do it. But then suddenly i realized,there's always HIM on our side, willing to hear any of our problems. I pray to HIM and i let go all of my feeling until I cried.. and with a blink of an eye. The problem gone.. I dont know.. suddenly I felt so relief and it just poof gone. From that moment I know whenever we have problems we should tell HIM.. cuz He's the only one we can count on. Alhamdulillah. That should be the word i have to say everyday and ever second in my life. Thanks. Now I can even hardly think bout the past memory. Alhamdulillah. Now I should be ready to be an obedient person to You. :). Thanks..  Im not saying this because of i want to show off.. but my point is.. whenever we have problems.. Tell Allah would be the best cure and solution and strive to solve it :)

Today...

Guess I never feel this kinda of tiring before.. its really really and really tiring. working as kitchen helper or chef helper. Now I know how hard to earn money for living. No matter how hard I work at the restaurant the salary might be only be 900 at most. If I worked before this I would realize how hard to earn money. All this time I already wasting my scholarship money on something that is totally rubbish! The only thing I had to do is studying and you get Rm 500 for free. I don't need to work hard at all. 9 hours of class and thats all. I can tell how regret am I. Dear God please forgive me for the mistake that I have done. As I said before 10 is enough. There's a lot meaning behind that number 10. I cant afford to turn back after this. I have made my decision. No more playing around its time to be honest to yourself. Cause you won't succeed if I'm not being honest. Besides i wanna enjoy my life to the fullest. No more boundaries. Except my religion boundaries. I have long way to go brother so enjoy will ya.. But before that I have 24 days left to work before I get my first time in life salaryyyy!! haha It may be only Rm 800. I have allocated Rm400 for my camera.. D3100!!! Yahooo thats gonna be my BABY!!!! Ill wait for you okay.. on 9th of April! lol. Ok and the other Rm400 would be my money for me and my baby spending time together. ;). alright then assalamualaikum.

My BABY :))) She's awesome isn't she.

First day of work..

Seriously it was not bad at all.. It was great cause i learnt many thing while I were there. Eventhough the boss did lots of talking haha but most of the time I could not hear what she's trying to speak lol. yeah and the salary was not bad 25 per day.. It is  a good deal.. as a helper in the kitchen haha.. Today is my second time i cut squid.. and first time I 'open' shells mouth and get the meat.. annnddd most important thing is.. there's someone that looks good in my eyes lol. well but i shall not forget my vow last time.. I will try as hard as possible for not being in relationship in 4 years... 4 YEARS my friend. Its going to be tough.. but i made it last time within a year.. but who knows i can increase it to 4 years.. it would be my lifetime record. lol. It is simple why i dont want it. I have a looottt things to focus on other than relationships. Plus im sucks at it. So as conclusion ill let fate bring me to that. Let the relationship seek for me.. Not me seeking for them.. It going to be long journey my friend.. InsyaAllah. :)... to be continue :)

If you wanna say "I Love You". Just Call your MOM!

This is what we call a magnificent pick up line to publish. Well yeah this is truthfully useful for a person like me :). Im quite confuse cause of.. our society had make this three word specifically only for girlfriend and boyfriend relationship only. But why don't we say it to our mom or dad. Thats more appropriate and well to say sweet. but maybe sometime we have to think about it.. How many times in a year have you said these words to your parents. Some maybe said it once a year during parents birthday and some maybe more than that and some maybe never. So my point here are.. maybe you are not used to say that to your parent but theres always been another alternative.

I LOVE YOU

First step: pick up your phone and go to message.

2.Create new message.

3. Type I LOVE YOU. Send it :D

simple right? :) and maybe you can add FOREVER at the back of that words.. cause  it is true that you love your mom forever. :) simple right. I said to these for the sake of myself and others. :). So for those who are really desperate to search a girl or a boy to express their love toward him or her. Say it to your mom or dad. Cause they love you more than you know :) 

Thank you.I LOVE YOU MOM.. XOXOXO

Time management :(:::: FAIL

Well this time i wanna take a look on my daily routine which i dont know where to start.Suppose ppl will tell the day start when you wake up from sleep... So alright then lets start.


12.00 p.m                  : Open My eyes. + breakfast


1.00 - 7.30p.m           : Pray... Buy some stuff for my burger stall... Futsal.


7.30-11.00p.m           : Sell burger... close the stall..


11.00p.m - 6.00 a.m   : Dota... facebook... Sleep...


as the conclusion you fail. And this is truly  Not MATURE At All. T__T.

Why Suis Lampu?

Most likely it is because i don't have any ideas what to put as my blog name. But then I turned to my right and left for a couple of times and i saw a "suis lampu" and I'm thinking that I am searching for some guidances for my life. So maybe a "suis lampu would be perfect for my blogs name. But who cares. To be honest sometimes I have a lot thing to write on this blog. But when laziness strike i decided to keep it in my mind instead writing it. Gosh! I'm a serious lazy bum! I have to change! -_- I already said that for thousands of times but still nothing change.Duh you have to change man how long you will gonna live like this. Sleep at 6 a.m and wake up at noon. What the heck.. you wasting too much time of your life.




Well this is the switch im talking about.. Crazy! lol yeah i am doing crazy stuff.. but not for long. Shall we start changing from today? ;) yeah sure. But make sure you do it correctly and if not nothing will happen. Trust your self. And No one can change you except yourself :)..

Intercepting. 3.43 a.m

Assalamualaikum.. well well well.. I don't know where to start.. but this is my new blog. my new me and sort of old me. I have ine before this, but that one will get me to reminisce to something that i don't want to remember. What is hurting me? we'll find out later. hmm for simplicity this is the introduction. I'm going to start fresh move on forward and no more turning back. Enough is enough :).No more playing around. Get serious and be mature! MATURE!